I realised that I haven’t really updated my poetry pages lately and it’s just brain block, personally I find that being sad produces the best work for me so it’s a good thing i’m happier but also i love to express myself so it’s taking work to try and write…but I shall update soon.



3 subscribers, really?

Now if you’ve read my previous post on the topic you will know that I have a youtube channel. I currently have 3 subscribers (one of which is my other channel) yaaay. And I admit sometimes I feel like is it worth the effort it takes to film (it’s more than it looks) but then I remember the whole reason I wanted to make one is because I wanted to get out of my comfort zone. Starting the channel I was talking about music as it’s a big part of my life but now I realise how much more I want to try and put into it, more things similar to here with ideas on mental health and advice etc. whether or not anyone responds (out of 3 subscribers one comments). Because success isn’t always how many followers you have…


also for those of you that don’t see my face..that’s me… heey

Do I leave or do I stay?

I recently met up with an old friend who goes to a different uni to me, and we talked about our experiences. At the end of the conversation she said to me that she thinks I should move out, as I currently commute an hour and a half to uni daily on the tube. Now the thought has occurred to me before (normally on the tube during said commute) but I’d never seriously considered it because of the cost (convincing my parents to let me is a struggle) and if i’m brutally honest it’s way out of my comfort zone and i’d been too scared. I’m currently unsure as my friends are moving into a 4 bedroom house and if i’m honest I don’t want to move into a massive group house, one of my friends is considering attending my uni next year dependent on her grades but I don’t want to make a decision based on that but also do I want to live alone? (convincing my parents I want to spend over £400 a month to live alone would never work) my brain is currently filled with so many thoughts.

Anyone have experience of moving out and have any advice?

The little things

Hey all,

Just an update..uni has been hectic as the term is ending and my current unit is physics based so i’m dying. However i’m still trying to persevere and keep going. Today I managed to go running after finishing my coursework and managed a new PB in regards to min/mile going from 13:37 to 12:47 (however my mileage was a little lower due to time constraints) and i’ve been eating healthier so it’s the small wins for me.

Any successes this week?

Everything I never told you

Everything I never told you is a very interesting book, and not at all what I expected. Reading the back I assumed what the storyline would be, it described a dead daughter with a pressuring mum and a father that wanted her to fit in, a brother who blames a boy and a sister who is invisible in the family. I assumed one thing and while reading the story this seemed to occur however the end of the story isn’t as it seems and the characters are very developed making me empathise with each of them in a different way.

I picked up this story as it was on sale but was surprised by how much I enjoyed the story and characters. It’s described as a murder mystery style book about the girl’s death however it’s more of a story about a family and the fact she is dead sets the scene. It is also a really interesting look into how a Chinese man is treated in America especially after marrying an American woman. Set in 1977 it’s interesting to see how times have changed.

I’d recommend the book,just not as a tense murder mystery. It was very slow at times and there wasn’t much mystery but a compelling storyline.


Tuesdays with Morrie

This book made me cry.

Not many books can make me cry if i’m being honest but Tuesdays with Morrie made me cry for hours because after crying at the actual book I realised that it’s based on a true story and cried again. The content of the book is so insightful and the fact that such a person existed is so hopeful. The actual book revolves around Mitch and his visits every Tuesday to his old teacher Morrie’s house. Morrie now has ALS and the book shows him giving out his life advice while slowly exhibiting the symptoms of ALS. Despite the increasingly hard to death with symptoms Morrie’s brain is as sharp as ever throughout and provides food for thought. I always love books that leave a lasting impression on me and this book definitely did that..I was thinking about the things Morrie said for ages afterwards.

I cannot sum up the words to describe the book. Just read it and thank me later.

“Well, for one thing, the culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. We’re teaching the wrong things. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it. Create your own. Most people can’t do it.”

Time flies…

It’s been a while…

Time really does fly, i’ve been at uni everyday for quite long hours and have been hanging out with friends meaning my free time is limited, as well as trying to make youtube videos (more on that later). But this has made me value my time a little more and what I do with it, even though my exams are looming i’m trying to make sure i don’t panic and spend hours reading but rather balancing my time..

how’s your work/life balance going?